I suppose Happy Anniversary aussie.zone is in order. Our mates over the Tasman had theirs a week ago, and they had a cool post of all the exciting stuff that happened in the year. I don’t remember anything, though.

So you guys feel free to reminisce about the neat stuff you’ve seen on Lemmy over the past year and I’ll happily be reminded of all the stuff I’ve forgotten.

I had a dream where I made and ate a burger consisting of two hashbrowns, beetroot, lettuce, tomato, shredded carrot, grilled pineapple, and tofu with avocado and now I want to try that

It’s cold and foggy in Mildura!

I made a hot chocolate for my daughter because she’s studying and I realised I’ve never actually made a hot chocolate before so I winged it. Completed the job with marshmallows on the side.

Heading to the tote tonight to catch up with a very old workmate. Haven’t had a night out in around 6 months.

Actually just excited to dress nice lol

I don’t believe in a God but if I did, this product existing would be like spitting in God’s face.

Before you ask; of course I bought some.

I skipped dinner last night so I could get an early night. I did manage 9.5 hours, but starting the trip off with 4ish has absolutely screwed me over. I’m still really tired ☹️

Alright I’ve been back for about 24 hours now so it’s time to start whinging. It’s not even the cold that’s getting me down (this alpaca woollen jumper is almost too warm), IT’S THE GREY. IT’S 1PM AND I’VE HAD MY LIGHTS ON ALL DAY. So bleak outside. Give me back my sun!

I have a bunch of chores to do like packing away all my summer items, moving pots back to my (fixed) balcony and tidying up the thoroughly messy carport, heaps of laundry, changing bedsheets, washing the bird poop off my car from just before I left (bad timing, it’s been on the car for 2.5 weeks now)…

Looking at the weather I think I can put it all off to Monday. And so I shall. I deserve a day of doing nothing (but maybe I’ll get the car washed today and do a bit of laundry). (and sort out the presents.)

sat on soda soaked into the seat on the train so now im standing in front of some ads waiting for it to dry so i dont look like i peed myself

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yesterday I started doing special spine exercises as well as starting to make sure I used my back properly, no slouching, careful lifting, etc etc

it will probably take a while to see results but it’s a life time change so that’s ok

in the meantime neighbour partied until 3 am 😩

I wish that I could’ve talked it out with him. Respected his need for space and realised he was ignoring me because of that, not because he didn’t love me. I wish I could’ve articulated better to him that I was panicking that week. I wish I wasn’t so nasty about it to him in the end and had a civil discussion. I wish he didn’t give up so easily and that he communicated better as well.

I wish I was over it. People have said I should be over it by now. Everytime I go out, I get paranoid that I’ll see him or any of his people. Anyone that looks remotely like him, I get paranoid and think it’s him. I see a car like his or drive through nearby areas and think that I’ll see him. Worrying about it makes it happen twice or some quote along those lines. I want to forget.

The past is in the past. It is what it is. There is nothing I can do to change it, even if I so desperately want to. When the logical part of my brain kicks in, I realise it’s normal to miss someone you cared about a lot, even if you don’t want them back. It just shows you cared. As for the fears, easier said than done, but I need to realise that time will help me get over it. If I do ever see him again, it might be painful, knowing that in some time, he’s going to be building a life with someone that isn’t me. On the flip side, I get to build my own life, and probably a better life than what I would build with him.

I’ve been chatting with an online friend I made recently and even they will tell me that they’re going to be busy and actually reply to my long spiels of shit, even though I have absolutely no expectations about any of that. I didn’t even have to say anything at all. I realise now that I shouldn’t have had to ask for that much reassurance, and even though I think I would lean towards anxiously attached (in relationships), I was dealing with someone who couldn’t give me the time of day, leading to blows to my self-esteem and me overthinking.

Ahh… after all that fretting it’s time to do some relaxing art study. Today we draw perspective!

puts own head through wall

Most obnoxious Ikea delivery ever.

Have one of those horrible old buzzers that are really unpleasant. Like scare you half to death when they go off. The delivery guy doesn’t just press it once or twice politely, but proceeds to press it multiple times and then long presses it twice.

Can’t remember wanting to kick someone this much in a long time. Face, preferably.

I registered for the Melbourne Property expo this weekend. I probably won’t end up going but it would be interesting to see all the worst people you know in one place