I did all the things. Transitioned. Quit opioids and cigarettes. Went back to school. Got discriminated against and persevered. Quit my last job because of anti LGBT policy and got my dream job.

Oh, and I did all that since 2020.

And it’s a nightmare. I’m isolated. No support, and I found out today my coworkers hate me and think I’m trash.

I don’t know what to do. Go back to school? It’s just going to be more of the same. In the last five years, I achieved more than I ever thought I could. And I’ve never been more alone or miserable than I am right now.

I’m tired of living in a world that doesn’t want me, that I’ll never be good enough for. My parents were right, I’m never going to be good enough.

So what’s the point?

  • nieceandtows@programming.dev
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    9 months ago

    What I have found is that when the whole world seems and feels to hate/ridicule you, all you need is a few people who love/accept you in your life to begin with. I would sincerely advise you to seek out these people in real, daily life. Places like https://foodatfirst.com/ in your city/state, where you can go volunteer and they would welcome you. Or find a new hobby and visit some hobby related places, like a board game cafe or something similar. One thing to remember is that the mind can spiral if left on a particular thought alone for a long while, so please find activities/people that help you divert your thoughts and attention in a different, healthy, direction.