mental health stuff - working stuff out by writing....
I had a lovely day out with friends but struggled to get any enjoyment out of it, and to focus on the moment (very brainfoggy). Made me realise I’m further down the depression path then I thought. I’ve had a few big stressful things going on that have made me anxious and down. But it’s gone beyond external - haven’t felt this disconnected and …grey… for a long time.
I came home and went straight to bed - just felt completely overwhelmed. Have managed to make dinner finally by putting on a podcast for company. And that’s rice and dal so I’ll get lunch out of it too. I need to plan out my work week - it’s busy and I like to get ahead of it on sunday but I’m just burned. No I can’t realistically take a mental health day or three right now either (for reasons, trust me)
So. this week I will:
- Eat breakfast and lunch and at least a light dinner. I can boil an egg if needed
- Sleep by 10pm and I will be out of bed by 6:30. If I can, go for a walk. If not, just stand outside for a few moments.
- keep cutting back on sugar and lay off the alcohol for the week - neither help
- Take meds and add in a multivitamin (I have a half a container I bought when I was getting over the flu).
god, that sounds exhausting. And I need to realise it is exhausting - so I will use my ‘spoons’ for food, washing, sleeping, moving. And the work I have to do. That’s going to be it this week.
I’m going to post here to try to keep track. Hopefully it’s just from stress/burnout and I can get back out of the hole with a couple of weeks of care.
I might join you… I’m pretty good with having breakfast/dinner after 20 years of being inconsistent with either. But I have a habit of coming home from work, eating dinner on the couch and then not moving from there until I go to bed. I have almost no friends in Melbourne so I spend my weekends doing much the same.
You’ve got this! 🙂
so many hugs
you can post here anytime, we are all here for you 😘
Thanks mate.
Hopefully you have enough spoons to get back on track. I’m cheering you on!
❤️ having little sancuaries of friendliness on the internets makes a big difference. thanks
Right there with you. Every small act of self care adds up
I’m joining you with the getting up on time bit. I notice I’ve been feeling quite empty lately, most probably due to list of life events.
Most work I’ve ever done for a bunch of flowers 😜
Their rose design is evolving!
Yes! I think additions will be necessary
They are very interesting.
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Did Tom take the bait?
I posted a comment in the wrong spot. All flowers are beautiful no matter what they’re made of
How are we doing no snacks after dinner gang?
Remember it doesn’t have to go perfectly all the time. If you’re hungry eat. If not, leave those snacks for when you are hungry. You’ve got this!
Failed. I did it the other way around. Ate snacks then dinner.
Snack was half a block of dark chocolate.
You did not fail because there is no pass or fail here. Get back on the horse because there is always a tomorrow.
I don’t really have a goal but I have noticed I was eating too much after dinner.
I’ll probably have some fruit later for dessert.
That’s what I noticed about myself and I wasn’t even hungry.
I found I have much more energy the next day when I don’t snack before bed. That could just be me though.
i’ve been doing snacks as dinner, but at least it’s nut mix with green peas
You are very good at looking after everyone here no matter how weird their meal plans are. You make sure you look after you, ok.
Yes ma’am 🫡
Look not great, but when I saw your comment I put the block of chocolate away. Small steps.
I don’t know what to say to that. A part of me is proud of you. A part of me is apologetic.
After dinner no problem. It’s the mid afternoon snacks that are my downfall.
Are you snacking because you’re hungry or because you’re bored or out of habit?
All of the above! Plus snacks are tasty, it’s a reason to have a break, and can focus better if not feeling hungry. Might try having a smaller lunch and healthy snacks, which might balance it out rather than trying to eliminate the snacks.
I think you’ve got the solution there but gee it’s the perfect time for a donut and a cuppa.
I’ve been doing ok. No bad food snacks. Had a plain bun with coffee for afternoon tea.
You’ve done good. Let’s hope for better weather so we can all get a bit more Vitamin Delirium and exercise.
Kooka’s Country Cookies are the best cookies. No other compares to the greatness of Kooka’s.
These taste best when acquired from your motel room’s complimentary coffee/tea bar.
Fully agree. Lemon is the bomb for me.
Yesss, love them. A packet of choc raspberry or lemon biscuits does not last even one day at my house lol
oh yes, they are very very delicious. I’m still not buying any.
The lemons one are nice. Think I’m going to buy some this week.
The lemon ones have me drooling like Homer Simpson.
They are delicious. For some reason, in the rare occasion I stay in a motel they always seem to have them in the ‘tea & coffee’ box
Back home and defrosted after a lot of cold, cold, cold, and cold. It was good to have a solid weekend away and with different people doing stuff I never would’ve done myself, partly because it makes me redevelop an appreciation for being at home again. I definitely feel like I got away properly and cleared some of the cobwebs in my head.
It was so cold this weekend. I reckon it’s nice to go away, because then you really appreciate coming home again (particularly if you’ve cleaned the house before you left)
Absolutely! We all need a good reset every so often, I forget how to do this. And to your point I am SO glad I cleaned the house before I left, even though it was really tough to squeeze it in… Felt so luxe coming back to a tidy house, sparkling kitchen, clean floors, neat bed…
Gentle house cleaning and chin tucks. Multivitamin.
I really need to start doing a small amount of dumbbell rows each day again, wtf is this posture
Ooh, good idea, thank you.
I hate when I come across shit like calculators. They still work, can’t give them away, can’t throw them out, already have 4 scientific calculators kicking around. I have no problem throwing broken shit out but when they still work I just can’t do it as easy.
TI-83 plus represent.
I remember running some version of Mario bros on mine lol
I still have my old calculator from years and years ago. It was really expensive at the time. I suppose it’s a keep sake in a way.
I’m making kofta for dinner.
I can no longer tolerate tuna pasta. I can eat the same thing for months, but it does eventually get old lol
Lamb?
Definitely
Yummo!
Great ideas!
Wrap the tuna in filo, bake and smother in lemon juice
Kofta is a success!
There’s my dinner for the next 4 nights. Fuck yeah!
that’s a proper winter day
fucken freezen mate
Brrrr
We just went to the La Trobe market. You can’t best a good old school market with the guy at the fruit and vegetable stall constantly shouting
Trying to get used to Affinity products and getting a little frustrated. Adobe is the devil but boy-howdy do I know my way around those apps.
Shortly after I took this photo I said “hey, what are you upto chunky?”
And the incredibly angry meow I got back in return put me in my place lol
That’s a mini tiger in there 🐅
I can feel my eyeballs pulsing
Ow. That doesn’t sound good. Cold compress maybe for symptomatic relief?
That’s the weirdest part. It doesn’t feel like a ssinus thing, its just…bulging pressure differential
That actually sounds like it might be worth calling Nurse on Call or similar - just in case there’s a blood pressure issue.
Oh damn. Just woke up from a nap.
