I have some tradies in the house today, and I’ve just walked upstairs to find two of them giving Gwyn a belly rub and Gwyn lying flat on his back, loving life. Was so funny. He’s such a little belly rub slut and I love how friendly he is.

That is usually my ethos, too, but it’s hard with this one. Still, I know that once I get it out with you guys, I’ll forget about it in a day or two. I do appreciate the support here. It’s why I felt comfortable posting it.

I suppose I am just getting it out of my system chatting to you guys. I don’t want to get too worried cause it seems ridiculous for something not confirmed yet, but it’s hard not to think worst case.

I have been really struggling with my health at the moment, more than usual, with my autoimmune disease. Yesterday my specialist mentioned there is a possibility that I have a very serious side effect of my autoimmune disease. This is the sort of serious complication that has a 5-year mortality of 30-50%, so it is pretty nasty. It is about as bad as it gets with this particular disease. Now I have to go off for further tests and wait about a month to hear. I am trying not to overthink, but then also, surely they wouldn’t have bought up something so nasty unless they were fairly certain, right? I really don’t know what to think about it all, and since I have decided to keep it to myself unless it’s confirmed, I am going to vent to you guys.