During my anti-c phase i had a really funny excuse i used to try to reconcile the fact i was 14 and sexting with adults with that belief, it was something like “i don’t mind if it’s with me because i know i want it but it’s bad with other people because they don’t”
Of course, that’s completely nonsensical so after some time questioning i just became pro-c lol
Unfortunately I can’t give much advice about that, I’m extremely open about being an ally but that’s because:
Being an ally carries a smaller risk to begin with.
I don’t care about ostracization, if someone would cut me off for being an ally, I don’t want them near me to begin with, no exceptions.
Honestly, if I were a MAP myself and in the US/UK I probably wouldn’t tell anyone offline (or that could find me offline) at all, but I don’t know about your situation. I know most people care about being ostracized far more than me, and that’s a big risk.
(Also sorry for the delay, I don’t check this much)