You just need to wear something bright–doesn’t have to happy bright though, could be like a bright green skull on your shirt or something, bright coloured shoes with black attire. Own that spooky vibe. Lean into it. Be proud of it. You’re not soulless, just a spooky ghoul and spooky ghouls are great.

The paranoia is definitely it’s own thing that I am aware I need therapy for but I don’t think that means to completely dismiss any of this as just me being hysterical. The presence of AI art generators is troubling and tons of artists are struggling and truly impacted by it. We feel written off. We feel attacked and betrayed.

I think it’s possible for there to be two truths. That yes I do have schizoaffective disorder and that is a personal issue I’m working on. But that ai art generators are also harmful to the art community and could discourage artists from posting to this instance if the ai art generators don’t allow them a space to share.

I want to make an argument against this statement. “They think the problem is that ai is capable of creating similar or better art” I did not say this. Ai art is not better, it can never be better without the human behind the drawing. I use art in place of the more appropriate word slop to allow people to read without immediately feeling accused and thus unwilling to see my perspective on this. We can’t come to an agreement on things if we are villifying the other person so if they think it’s art then I will call it that on their behalf, and then gently guide that person to why it’s not. It’s just empty without it. And usually the proportions are off or a thumb is mangled.

I love drawing so much but the presence of so many AI art generators is hurting my sanity.

Okay, will do. Thanks for the advice! :)

People are so caring. T-T I’m not worthy. Thank you. <3

I’m sorry this was such a heavy post. Thank you for responding. The noise doesn’t bother me, but I have schizoaffective disorder and have been having really bad paranoia with mild auditory hallucinations. I have auditory hallucinations from all sounds, like the noises my body makes, the fan whirring, ambient white noise like the patter of rain. I hear things like people talking or a girl crying. I won’t sugarcoat it, it’s fucked up. But I am more terrified of the silence because I hear things then too. There is no mute button in my head. It makes noise with everything else has quieted. I give schizoaffective disorder a one star review.

I posted this and then ran away (or rather, rolled over and played dead possum), but I’m back and not dead yay. I actually had not even thought about this. Thank you. I know one family friend of my mom’s. They’re someone I could maybe talk to, it’s just that I’m so severely anxious to approach anyone. I will try.

I got so thirsty I just gave in and drank it. And when I didn’t die, I decided, screw it. The water paranoia is not always present, but if it is around for too long, what I have done is boiled the water and drank it hot. I think a water filter could be a good investment for this. Thank you for the suggestion. And I’m sorry this was such a heavy post. Thank you for your response. Yes, it’s been a wild ride on the crazy train. I don’t recommend this ride, I give the crazy train one star review.

I’m sorry this got so heavy. It’s been a lot this month. Stupid brain not working. Yes, absolutely. A vegetable and a walk can help, there’s no denying that. It won’t cure it, the disorder I have called schizoaffective disorder, but it’s still better than nothing. I got some red peppers and a glass of water. All set.

Thank you. Yes, I haven’t completely given up hope. I know this post was extremely heavy and uh, I was having a moment. I have schizoaffective disorder that runs in the family and it’s been kicking my ass recently. Which is also why it took me a whole week to even look at the other responses. I think I might post on Lemmy what I’ve learned about this mental disorder. Even though it’s been hell to endure, having knowledge about the enemy in my head has given back to me some power. There are a few good neuroscience videos on the how and why of psychotic spectrum disorders like schizophrenia and schizoaffective.

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I support your journey wherever it takes you.

Everything has a double meaning now but can’t deny I love a good poem. Thank you.

I’m saving it.

Sure it did. Kidding.

Yes. I read about that. It feels like we’ve been left to rot. Maybe we have.

I’m not a good person either. I hope you’re taking care of yourself.

I heard someone say recently “I don’t believe in good or evil. I believe in kindness.” I am still trying to detangle myself from the idea of being good. Good is subjective.

We just have to be kind to ourselves, to others. And it’s okay to mess up. We are on this earth indefinitely. This isn’t a video game. We have endless opportunities to try again.

Not good, Bob. ._. If you are still a young whippersnapper, take care of your mental health, don’t be like me and let it get worse. This just snuck up on me. Now I can barely leave the house and electronic devices scare me. I am completely serious.

Oh yeah that is true. But that’s like work yelling, not the same as Dad yelling at kid if they drop something. Hehe.

I’m in Canada and this reminded me of my Grandma’s place, waking up in the morning to see the mist on the lake. I miss that.