At the Young Republican mixer Friday evening a group of Nazis, who openly identified as national socialists, mingled with mainstream conservative personalities, including some from Turning Point USA, and discussed race science and antisemitic conspiracy theories.
No problem at all. I am older and have a number of post-Covid problems myself, so I am all too familiar with the Not Now Maybe Later Personal Energy Forecast. Take your time. These things, I think, happen exactly as they are supposed to. I don’t know what you belief system is (and I don’t want to step on it so please forgive any offense) but the way I see it is that because you were so resonant when you were introduced to the runes, they were kind of “meant to be” for you, and I just happened to be the one to open that door. Later, you’ll open other doors yourself, and even further on, you’ll be like me, accidentally opening a door for someone totally new like yourself.
If you have the intention and will to learn and grow (and you do!) it will all happen exactly as it is supposed to.
I see you ran into Berkana, lol. It’s the one that looks like a B and it’s THE fertility rune. But no worries. It’s not just about sprogs! (We’d ALL be in trouble if I woke up in the family way, lol.) Rather, think about fertility in terms of creative energy and all the NON-diaper-wearing things you give life to – everything from an amazing recipe, to a unique solution to a problem, to wording a post, to the innovative way you juggle your schedule and manage to get done more than you thought you could. Fertility is about all things creative.
Berkana is also about nurturing. I find it to be roughly analogous to The Empress card in tarot: that which is nourishing, comforting, soothing, and renewing; about ensuring you care for yourself as well as the others around you, and in a fair way. If you have a caring soul, you will find yourself often drained because you’re taking care of everyone around you. Let Berkana be a reminder that you’re on that personal 'needs care" list too, and not in last place.
Because these runes come from ancient times when children were the greatest source of wealth a community could have, pretty much every ancient community has overtly sexual fertility totems, statues, rites, etc. But if a general definition like fertility = babies or even wealth = cattle (Fehu) is simply not for you, you can safely forget all that and bring it to your own modern sense of what it means. Fertility, at its core, is about creativity: for some that’s creating new life, for the rest of us it’s about creativity in everyday living.
When I was getting into the runes, I read a lot of things from different sources, and I would suggest the same to you. The list you have now of what they mean is a great place to start, but they will each acquire their own specific-to-you meaning along the way. So if you run into a rune – or a rune-related idea – that’s just ??? for you, no worries. Chances are excellent that 1) that’s not the only thing that rune is about, and 2) within the general framework, that rune was never going to mean EXACTLY to you what it means to that other person anyway. All that you read is a starting off point: find that core idea behind each, take what resonates, learn the general ideas behind each one, but be open to the runes teaching you their secrets themselves. And they will.