Well, I really enjoy that everything makes much more sense after my self-discovery. I always felt like an alien in a world where everyone else just intuitively gets the rules. After discovering that I’m trans and autistic, this just confirmed that I am indeed somehow an alien. And now that I know that I’m different I try to learn to mask (emulate my behavior?) less and be more my self. But it is also pretty hard to come to terms with not fitting in this society and that it will probably always exclude me in some way. It just drains so much energy to be marginalized on a frequent basis. People that stare at me, are confused by my gender presentation or my way to talk. This whole society is just build to accommodate people that are not like me. It is nice to have my like-minded friends, but it still is kind of a lonely life full of barriers.
Well, I really enjoy that everything makes much more sense after my self-discovery. I always felt like an alien in a world where everyone else just intuitively gets the rules. After discovering that I’m trans and autistic, this just confirmed that I am indeed somehow an alien. And now that I know that I’m different I try to learn to mask (emulate my behavior?) less and be more my self. But it is also pretty hard to come to terms with not fitting in this society and that it will probably always exclude me in some way. It just drains so much energy to be marginalized on a frequent basis. People that stare at me, are confused by my gender presentation or my way to talk. This whole society is just build to accommodate people that are not like me. It is nice to have my like-minded friends, but it still is kind of a lonely life full of barriers.