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Leaving Islam, I know this comment will spark some debate, which is pointless ( to me at least )… So fingers crossed nothing will happen

Muslims often say: “oh, so you’re an atheist!, tell us where do you get your morals?” And “Oh, you left Islam so you can live a life of sin, drinking alcohol and having sex with tons of people”…

The irony is that the reason you leave Islam ( or any other “organized” cult ) is because of your intact moral compass, you’re against violence ( murder and war ), homophobia, sexism, pedophilia, racism, slavery, genital mutilation, you’re against fear, control, indoctrination… And the list goes on… And even if it was true, I left Islam to live a life of sin, the prize of winning in Islam, is to live an internal life of sin in heaven so… 👉👈

I live in a Muslim country, and It’s safe to say ( not out loud, if you know what I mean ) that the only reason people here are muslims is because they’re indoctrinated, from birth… you hear the same arguments, the same logical fallacies, the same pathetic biases … from every person, that’s why I said it’s pointless…

It’s sad, to live undercover with “friends” and “family” who will let you go if they knew the real you, and it’s really a lonely life, and it gets even lonelier because I’m fucking gay, I used to think, not so much, but I thought of going back and trying to fit in, try to be like everyone else, maybe If I can live in a broken system, I’ll stop seeing how broken it is… But I can’t, and I won’t, it’s just doesn’t work like that, once you’re awakened, you can’t go back to sleep.

So, I’m proud because I feel like I’m a better human being, because when I look around and see Muslims praying on the downfall of Jews and Christians, ( and I don’t know about Christians and Jews so don’t ask me, I would say probably the same lol… 😂, they all hate each other…) When I see that, I see how religion divides us ( “in order to rule us” … Like Mr Robot said ) and how much hate people carry because of such beliefs

Brushing my teeth. I’ve been through progressive hard depression from an early age. Yeah. It’s not much

Going to talk therapy. Getting married and having kids really pushed me and helps me keep going on the hardest days. I cannot have mental illness affect their lives like it did mine growing up.

Remember Valentine’s day 2004, when San Francisco county started issuing marriage licenses to same-sex couples?

Thousands of couples showed up. Some from the other side of the planet, some from the other side of town. The County Clerk was overwhelmed and there weren’t nearly enough wedding officiants to keep up. So they put out a call for volunteers to be deputized by the Clerk as county marriage commissioners. I volunteered and officiated at dozens of ceremonies at city hall.

Still have my official commission hanging on my wall.

In 2007, I, a non-white non-Korean, took a job in South Korea. Then, I took another. Then, at the third job, I was hired, but the owner’s brother was amenable to some of the more racist thoughts that guided the approach to business in SK. He thought I would hurt the business. He resisted hiring another non-white, non-Korean.

The owner asked me to write a letter. Instead of saying, “that’s not my job”, I wrote the letter. I made the case. They hired another non-white, non-Korean after me.

I’m still pretty proud of that letter.

An unhoused woman recently asked me if I’d buy her some food at a fast food joint. I said ok because I think I have a moral obligation to help anyone who asks for food if I can afford to. She ordered the largest multi-item meal they offered (think bucket of chicken). The person ringing it up offered to do a smaller combo, but I said fuck it and let her get the largest. I figured she might have people to feed other than herself and it’s not like I couldn’t afford to let her indulge.

The reason I’m proud on this is because I changed myself into this compassionate person where once there was an angry person filled with hate. This is the product of years of therapy and deliberate self-work. I’m also proud of finally being able to love myself. That happened in 2019-2020.