I’m glad we could have a normal conversation about religion, that usually doesn’t happen on the internet.

I was an atheist for a long time but eventually I found a religion that actually made sense to me. The main thing that drew me to it was that I was encouraged to question things like this, and come to my own conclusions if I didn’t agree with others. Maybe there is belief system that works for you, maybe there isn’t; but regardless I think its important to try to figure those things out for yourself, so good luck.