I am currently on vacation and going to the beach sucks because I see these girls my age and think “Holy shit, I want to look like that.” But then I get heavy impostor syndrome. Maybe this is just me being attracted and wanting to be trans, so my brain makes it think it’s envious when it’s just attracted? So, how do you tell envy from attraction?
I agree with your 2 cents. If OP eventually identify as cis, trans, or non-binary, that is great, but don’t rush it. It’s your own journey to take in your own pace, OP.