I understand that I have to relax every now and then, however I am really struggling with it, being constantly in an endless loop of:

1. Having a lot of energy and doing a bunch of stuff for a couple of weeks.
2. Getting exhausted to the point I cannot control my impulsions and wreck my daily routine
3. Try to rest only to fall in a depressive state for a couple of weeks.
4. Collect myself up and repeat from step 1.

Trying to do low effort activities like watching a series or playing video games, is addictive, I stay up late without being able to stop, and end up more tired.

The hobbies I like require focus, and that’s what I am trying to avoid. Examples include programming and chess.

Going out with friends is nice but drains my social energy, after a couple of weekends out I need to stay in.

Chores sometimes work, but other times I feel guilty about the state of cleanliness of my home.

So, how do you relax/rest? Got a magic recipe? Are you struggling like me?

Edit: I just want to say this community is awesome, thanks for the support.