• lemmy_99c4zb3e3@reddthat.com
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    4 months ago

    Depressed and suicidal. I wish I could be happy kms, but I have to live a few years more. I have to suffer until certain people that I don’t want to hurt are gone. Even then, I don’t know if I’m brave enough. Isn’t this a hell? (╥_╥) I will start experimenting with ketamine, mdma and fungus this year. I hate myself I hate society. I just want to take my neuroleptics or benzodiazepines and sleep. I don’t want to participate in the rat race.

    I started noting my mood. This is the last month from 12.06 - today (17.07)

    • DudemanJenkins@lemmy.worldOP
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      4 months ago

      This might be the drugs talking but I’m a strong advocate for drugs. I hope you’re able to find good and real stuff and at least a trusted friend to trip sit.

      I’m currently bound to this earth by my family since I could never stomach the thought of them enduring that loss.

      I hope you have a reason to draw that curve upwards some day my friend.