I still have a pulse. Don’t know wether that’s a good or bad thing.
Hope things turn out alright for you internet stranger and anyone reading this.
Depressed and suicidal. I wish I could
be happykms, but I have to live a few years more. I have to suffer until certain people that I don’t want to hurt are gone. Even then, I don’t know if I’m brave enough. Isn’t this a hell? (╥_╥) I will start experimenting with ketamine, mdma and fungus this year. I hate myself I hate society. I just want to take my neuroleptics or benzodiazepines and sleep. I don’t want to participate in the rat race.I started noting my mood. This is the last month from 12.06 - today (17.07)
This might be the drugs talking but I’m a strong advocate for drugs. I hope you’re able to find good and real stuff and at least a trusted friend to trip sit.
I’m currently bound to this earth by my family since I could never stomach the thought of them enduring that loss.
I hope you have a reason to draw that curve upwards some day my friend.